J-J-Jaded

Ever hear that song by Aerosmith, Jaded? I hadn't until about last spring, when a friend told me I was "Jaded." I didn't know what it meant, so I was told to simply listen to the song. Here's my understanding: You can only go so far with something before your breaking point. You work hard at this something, and then when you realize that not much progress is being made, that burden you've been carrying is suddenly gone. Now, I know that there are many different views of the term, but I'm sure at some point, they all boil down to the same thing- simple indifference.

Here's how this all applies. I used to find a negative connotation with the term. But now, I realize that being "jaded" isn't necessarily that negative. It relieves stress and pressure, allowing you to focus on what really matters. -- So long as you're not "jaded" with important things that will end up carrying you far. I'm guessing at this point it's all based on whatever situation or predicament you're in. I've been thinking on this probably since I was told I was "jaded" but it wasn't until today that it all started becoming clear... and at times, much more confusing.

The concept here: Focus on what really matters. Don't become jaded against the things that you need in life, because if you do, you're pretty much screwed in the end. There are some things that you have to care about. But, if you find yourself focusing on things that really shouldn't have that much influence in the way you live, then just let it go. (I'm pretty sure that's why my fortune cookie says on Facebook. Let it Go.) Become jaded, if you will. Don't be a hero, take care of what you need to and nothing else until you are completely satisfiedwith what you've done already.

I'd love to know what you guys think about this. Any other forms of "Jaded" out there??

Much Needed Break

~Got out of school Tuesday afternoon after my Sociology exam. Hung out with Tara, Andrew and Stephen and later Codie and Cameron joined us. Afterward, Codie and Cameron came back to my place and we hung out here until the wee hours of the morning!! Good fun!
~Wednesday was filled getting ready for the parents to come and with Codie and I painting overalls! We spent hours on the kitchen floor painting and watching Tila Tequila! Oh good old MTV reality shows!
~Wonderful Thanksgiving with the parents and Andrew.. haha and Senor Cafe, although we were confused as to WHEN exactly he was coming, so we ate without him... oops!! :/
~We BTHO t.u!!! AAAA!!! Good fun! I was SOO excited that we pulled out a win, as I'm sure, the other 88,000 people in Kyle Field were!!! Afterwards, we went back to my place and watched Andrew and my Dad dunk their rings! ...Very entertaining!
~Saturday, went to lunch with Senor Cafe at Blue Baker. Very fun, however very cold!! Later, I said goodbye to the parents when they finally left, and then headed back to the apartment for some studying and whatnot. Later, Tara, Andrew, Stephen, Heather, and Marshall came over to watch Robin Hood! hehe...
~Today has been filled with pictures and Chemistry. Good, good fun... haha...
Good break. Very successful in all, and now it's back to the harsh reality to school. Bah. All good things must come to an end...

Aggie Ring and Pictures

~Had a good weekend. Bro got his Aggie Ring on Friday. I think it's safe to say we are all proud of him.
~Hung out with the parents Tara, Andrew and Ashley on Saturday. We always seem to enjoy ourselves!
~Spent all day yesterday studying for Chemistry. I hate the darn class, and I can't wait for the first semester of it to be over with.
~Enjoyed walking all over campus today with Codie taking pictures of things that make A&M beautiful. Check 'em out on Facebook.
~Had a blast getting my nails done with Codie and Tara. Fun girls' activity- as always!
~Enjoyable evening- reading, going through pictures, and flipping back and forth from a football game to MTV reality shows!
~Excited that I only have one test standing between me and my break. I'm almost there....

CRAZY Week!

WHAT A WEEK....
*Had a great weekend when Ashley came to visit.
* We (Ashley, Tara, Andrew and myself) spent over two hours at Rosa's on Friday laughing and "discussing" random things. I was stressed out that day about something, and I was glad to be able to just relax with some friends.
*Saturday we hung out with the mother- she was in town for Aggie Mom's Fish camp. We had dinner with her and about 500 other Aggie Moms. I think she had a good time making some friends and hangin' our with us kids. Afterwards, we went to see the Bee Movie. Very funny- I highly recommend it!
* The week has been so stressful. I've had alot of work to do... and I have two tests at the beginning of next week. On the bright side, I am done-absolutely done- with Chemistry labs for this semester. I have my final in two weeks-- if its as easy as the midterm was then I'm in great shape!!
* The week hasn't been the easiest, but hopefully things will shape up and turn out alright. Fingers crossed, and now all I can do is work for it...
*Thankful for all my friends that have put up with me and helped me out this week... They're all amazing!! :)

Late Nights

~Had several late nights this week, but they were worth it. Late night hangouts/conversations are always pleasant.
~Cold walk on the way to class. Delightful.
~Running into someone that I haven't seen in many years. She recognized me outside of the MSC and stopped to talk. As it turns out, we went to daycare together... Small world!
~Enjoyable time at PBF- as usual.
~Coming home and getting a few things done... then I fell asleep and missed my Geography class. I knew I was tired, but goodness!!
~Realizing that I only have two lab classes left for Chemistry, and the second one is the final!! ...These two weeks are going to go by too slowly!

What a Lovely Weekend

~Getting to go to McKinney this weekend was amazing. I didn't exactly plan it, sort of decided around eleven o'clock Thursday night, and Friday morning I was on my way back to McKinney.
~Had fun at the Lions football game. Got to see some old friends- always fun.
~I was able to go to Cory's Eagle Ceremony. I didn't know I was necessarily wanted there, so it was nice to get the invite and then see Cory at the ceremony. He's worked hard, and finally able to get his Eagle, and I'm glad I was there to see it.
~Spent about six hours at Starbucks Saturday night. Did homework for a few hours, which was nice. Glad to feel productive. It's a start. Later, I had some company when Mr. Brown came. We talked for a long time, as usual. The girl that worked there had to remind us that they had already closed... so we had to leave. Hehehe..
~Talked to Stephen for a while online. Very much enjoyable. It was really helpful. I needed a good reality check.
~I was able to go to lunch with some friends Sunday. Zack, Fatty, Diane, Cory and Chris Kelley all came. It's a good bunch, and a reunion just isn't right with out good ol' Tin Star!!

The weekend was wonderful. I was able to relax and get away from the stresses at school. I almost didn't want to come back. Then, when I got on highway six coming into Bryan, I was SO glad to be home. I absolutely love it here and have promised myself to work harder and not run away again!!It's just to0 wonderful...

Halloween and School

~The week has been crazy busy with tests/meetings/friends...etc. I've been very stressed out for the past few days, and I'm hoping things will wind down soon.

~It was good to hang out with some friends last night at Tara's for a small Halloween party. It's a good group. We watched the Exorcist and ate some yummy treats. It was a nice, relaxing night with the whole bunch.

~Yesterday was absolutely hilarious. I loved watching the people who decided to dress up in costume walk around campus. It's good to know that you can never grow out of the Halloween spirit!

~School is seriously killing me. I knew it was going to be hard, but I wasn't expecting it to be like this. I'm praying that things will turn out in my favor come the end of the semester, but at the moment, it's not looking too good. While I'm enjoying being here and meeting the people I have... I'm still struggling. In the end, it's all about school, not the people or the place, really. So, I'm having trouble balancing things and keeping them in order. Something else to work on.

Football and Coffee

~Had a good time at the football game on Saturday regardless of the setbacks before hand. ...not to mention the Ags losing for the first time at Kyle Field all season. ...Surprisingly, still had an enjoyable game.
~Glad to see some people I hadn't for a while. Good to actually make contact with them- hadn't done that in a long time.
~Good times hanging out after the game and watching Blazing Saddles with some UCMers.
~Got to hang out with the parents, Andrew, Tara and Codie for a bit yesterday afternoon. Always amusing!
~Spent three hours in tutoring for Chemistry. --This test is going to be much harder than the last, and here's hoping I'm ready for it. Guess I'll just have to wait and see...
~Went to a coffee shop afterwards with Andrew, Tara and Stephen. Cool place- I had never been. I didn't get much studying done there though. Wasn't really in the mood. After being at 4.0 and Go I was kind of over it. However, when I got home I was up a few more hours kicking my Chemistry book and then reading some... Kick, read, kick, read... Kind of the pattern for the rest of the night.
Oh, how I love Chemistry!! ...

Lateness and Bummed

Late post for the past couple of days.
~Good day hanging out with the friends. One of my friends of high school is in town. It's really nice to see him around campus. He seems to be enjoying himself and fits in well. Unfortunately, he doesn't have plans to attend A&M next year, but we'll keep working on it! Maybe we can change his mind! ;)
~Fun group for Bible Study. I'm not one for large groups. Don't seem to do well in them. This bunch was nice and cozy. However, next week should have a bigger turn out and it shouldn't be too bad!
~Had a good time hanging out before Midnight Yell. However, I received some bad news that a friend that I had been looking forward to seeing, wasn't going to be able to make it down this weekend. Bummed me out. I wasn't in the best of moods for Midnight Yell. Sorry to everyone.
~Now, it's just time to continue hanging out with the friends in hopes that I, eventually, will get over whatever it is that I'm upset about. Life's too short to be bummed about the little things.

Happiness and Friends

Wonderful day.
Enjoyed my walk to class, as always. Nothing beats being bundled up on the way to an 8am and still feeling the breeze.
Had a good time talking with Stephen before PBF. And then when everyone else arrived, enjoyed talking and laughing with them. I do love the UCMers!
Glad to have my laptop fixed! It's no longer ghetto!
Loved talking with Tara for a while. Where would I be without her?? ...Probably lost somewhere! :)
Had fun going to the mall with Codie for some quality shopping time! I found out how much money I had extra, so I had to splurge... just this once!

Been a good day. This weekend will be alot of fun too, and I can't wait for things to start rolling. I have alot to look forward to!

Cold Weather, Great Friends, and School

Well this is interesting....

So I started a blog because they come highly recommended by a few friends to help reflect on things. I have completely fallen out of the online journal type things, but I'll give this a shot. See how far I can take it. :)



So lately things have been amazing.

The weather is changing and I'm absolutely loving it. I walk everyday from my car to class (about 20mins) and I am enjoying that part of the day better than any other! I used to hate the cold, but now, I love wrapping myself up in my big jacket and getting all cozy and still feel the cold on my face. I love it. I come home and get on Facebook (if you know me at all, you know that's the first thing I do when I come home!) and see that everyone has their status set to something about how wonderful the cold is. Indeed. The cold is absoluetly amazing.

So this past weekend, I went on a Fall Retreat with UCM. That was a blast. Ya know, Youth Groups were never my thing. I didn't enjoy my last one, and wasn't really sure when I started thinking about coming to this one. Andrew is apart of it, and had been telling me all about it and wanted me to give it a try. I wasn't too sure, but did anyhow, and now I love it. I couldn't imagine not being apart of it! In fact, I would know very few people around campus and spend my time in class and in the apartment, and no where else! UCM is really awesome, and I'm glad I stuck with it. The retreat was alot of fun. We had an enjoyable ride up there, which got the weekend off to a great start. It was exciting to get to know everyone a little better and see relationships form amoungst the group. We had a camp fire on Saturday night, and it was very entertaining. Tara and I danced to country music that was being played at a concert down the road we all made samores and sat around talking and laughing. Not all of UCM went on the retreat, but the ones who did made the group wonderful. I don't like big groups much, and the size of this group was perfect. Made for a nice touch to the weekend!

School is hard. I'm not doing too well in Biology, which is rediculous because I had that in high school and should be better at it. I'm working hard, but for some reason, I'm not getting the results I want. People keep telling me that it's the first semester and I shouldn't worry about it too much, but I can't help it. I'm worrying alot about my grades, which is weird for me because I never do. I'm just going to have to keep working and praying, and maybe they will come up some before the end of the semester.



In all, life here in Aggieland is amazing, despite the grades. (which may or may not be good) The people are wonderful, the atmoshpere is unlike any other, and I'm loving it.